It's been about a million years since I last wrote a blog post. For anyone who was looking for me, I'm sorry! I have been super busy but hello! I'm back! And still rocking a very nervous vagina. Hoorah.
So, what's new?
Well, in the world of my vaginismus, not much really. It's still there. Scotland is currently undergoing a heatwave (I am basically an endless, sweaty disaster), but vaginismus still hangs over my head like a big, annoying rain cloud. I would love to update you and tell you something major has happened. But sadly that is not how this particular condition operates.
In slightly interesting news, I have decided to come off my contraceptive pill. I have obviously not actually been on this for contraceptive reasons (no actual sex= no reason for contraception right?). But I have been on it for years to try and control my nasty, heavy periods. However, I've had a few chats with friends recently who felt that the pill was killing their sex drive. I have a very low sex drive at the best of times. I always put this down to vaginismus, and a mild fear of sex, but recently I've been wondering if that little pill was suppressing all the good and interesting things about being a woman. And maybe, without it, I'd be in a better place to tackle my issues with sex.
I'll keep you in the loop with how that goes... Fingers crossed for some kind of miraculous breakthrough.
Otherwise, things are the same. Because there is no quick fix with vaginismus.
I have been so busy with work lately that I have just pushed it to the back of my head. If I don't think about it, it isn't there. Right?
SO, SO WRONG
But I am back on my blog. That must be a start. Vaginismus is back on my radar- and I have a new sense of determination to destroy it, and what it does to me.
I have had this determination before.
Here's hoping this time it's for real
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